Happy New Year to you all! I had a great 3 day weekend -- it was very relaxing. After an early dismissal and a spray tan appointment on Friday afternoon, I got a call from some of my Liberty friends telling me they were in town for the weekend "In town" in Atlanta can mean many areas of this massive city, but I was excited to find out they were staying in a hotel about 4 miles away from my condo! I was able to grab dinner with them and hang out a few other times that weekend.
Other than lots of sleep, getting dressed up on Saturday night, and seeing the movie, New Year's Eve (which was so cute!), I didn't do a ton this weekend! I reflected.... grabbed Starbucks and took a drive with no destination in mind. I remember last New Years, I was hopeful that 2011 would have been better than my 2010. But I really can say without sounding mopey that the past two years of my life have been very difficult. When this time frame in most lives are spent beginning to settle down, my life has been a bit chaotic and up in the air. There's been a lot of figuring out 'who I am' & 'what's going on' & 'what God wants me to do.' To say that there hasn't been nights filled with tears would be an understatement. I guess everyone at some point in their lives experience this weird time. Mine just happens to be now. It's a bit scary not knowing what tomorrow holds, but I can rest assured that I am in God's hands and that I will trust in Him.
One area of my life I know I need to work on this year is forgiveness. Through the hurt, I have healed, but the bitterness and resentment I have held in my heart still remains toward both the heartbreak & the job loss. I may not have been done right, but life isn't a bouquet of peaches & I need to forgive. Those on the outside looking in might would say, "But look at what you have now amidst all the heartache and hurt?" Yes, I got a cool fresh start in an amazing city & yes, I got an even better job than I had less than 3 weeks later, but I'm still bitter. I don't want to be.... I know that's not what God would have me to be. I pray this year for a forgiving heart towards those two situations.
That being said, I give 2012 up. I am letting go of trying to mold my life into what I think it should be or what I think should happen. I am going to just roll with it, hope for the best, be as happy as my heart will allow and keep pressing forward. Can I say that 2012 will be an amazing year? I can't really say that because I don't know..... but what I do know is that I pray it's a much easier and happier year than the last two.
Happy New Year to you and yours.