I wanted to thank you all again for your support. I have received and still receive tons of facebook messages, emails, comments, tweets, etc. and it is such an encouragement. I am doing very good, actually, and am moving right along with life. I am good at picking up my boot straps and riding along when life throws curveballs. Not to say that I did not grieve, but I am not the type of girl to wallow in my sorrows for weeks upon weeks. I am real -- I showed real, raw emotion -- I fought for my relationship to possibly work and I don't regret doing that, and I feel good for being transparent and not putting up a show. I would not be real to you if I didn't share with you today that I am doing fine and am experiencing the true love that only Jesus can offer. The Lord has worked in my heart in an incredible way the past 7 weeks and I am hopeful to see what He brings along in my future.
Forgiveness is something I offer easily, sometimes too easily. I like to be at peace with as many people as I can, and they can continually burn me and burn me over and over again, yet I will have a softened heart and will still forgive.
Without the Lord, I don't know how I would be able to do as well as I am doing. I wonder how people get through life's trials without the Lord to cling to. It is unthinkable to me. The nights when I crawl into bed and reach for my Bible and devotional book is a time that I yearn for each day -- begging the Lord to teach me something and to offer me a new jewel that I have not discovered yet. When I feel my heart start to squirm some days with fear and uneasiness of the future, I rest in the promise that God said He will never leave me.
I know the Lord has taken me down this road for a reason. I may not know today why this happened to me, but I look forward to being down the road and looking back, saying, "This is why you let this happen, God."
I believe in love... and I believe in relationships and partnership. It's special. Commitment is something very important to me and I stand by mine when I make them. I don't make a commitment unless I know I will honor it. I honored this past one and I will honor another one in the future.
I have such a strong desire to be a wife and a mother one day. My career is fun, yes, rewarding, yes, but, my ultimate delight will be when I have the opportunity to be a wife and mom. That is the desire of my heart and I trust the Lord will bless me with those things.
I have a smile on my face today. I am resting in God's love and mercy.